It sounds as though you are going thru what many fbb admirers have, a desire to start going 'beyond' the norm and that is what is depressing you. This whole genre is quite interesting really. I think Speed made a great point it is just how you are wired and wherever it leads you will need to accept it and deal with it in the best way possible.
I have always been an athlete myself so from an early age was accordingly attracted to athletic females at a "normal" natural fit level. There was always that group of hot extremely feminine yet athletic tomboy type girls in school, gymnasts, cheerleaders, track, etc. that I was naturally drawn to and have never felt a need to go beyond that level, and there was never really any sort of 'female domination' element to it, so the wiring just kept that level as my ideal preference the same. My wiring has just regulated it automatically, amazing how it works but that's just the way it does.
Funny thing about it though, I was talking about this subject with another friend who's an admirer of the bigger girls, and he could not for the life of him understand how I could feel girls like Lauren Beckham, Jen Rish, Mavi, Rachel are attractive and I felt the exact same about him who prefers Colette G, Iris, Yaxeni types, it's like 2 totally different worlds.
But for those who's wiring does take them out of the norm and to extremes I can totally understand how part of them may feel uncomfortable simply because there is only a very small % of people who find that level attractive on a female, and many who even feel it's weird including the methoids, etc. needed to attain those levels.
Personally I say to each their own, dig whatever you're wired to dig, but at the same time I can totally see how this young man could be going thru some issues if his wiring seems to be "ramping up" beyond a Macey Boudreau, since you can't really go beyond what is already perfection or it obviously becomes 'less' perfect, but again, to each his (or her) own.
maceyboudreaufan1 wrote on Sep 17th, 2009 at 6:07am:Recently I started to feel depressed for liking muscluar women

(more for liking FBB types)
I mean I normally don't like huge (like iris kyle) women but i feel sad since nobody else seems to enjoy it let alone not think its gross. I am wondering if should continue or just try to get rid of it. Any helpful advice or comments would be appericated.